7.29.2015

faraway.

i know the
miles between us feel
infinite and it's hard to
remember what my
skin feels like beneath your
fingertips, but i promise this
is only temporary

the longing

and oh, how it aches!
but inasmuch as the hurt reaches
everything, i will
love you that
intensely, that
deeply, that
wholly, that
well.

so please don't
shut down, shut me
out.

stay.

7.20.2015

chapters.

maybe all my new
chapters, all these
adventures were really just me
running

i always want to run

maybe starting fresh with a
suitcase of clothes in a
new place with new faces and nothing
familiar is really just
cowardly because i would rather be
invisible than be
known

than be seen
than be heard
than be hurt, all
over
again

and here i am, eye to
eye with another
beautiful perfect thing
gazing into my soul and i cannot
help but want to
flee, i want to
find a new adventure, one where
it's a mountain i climb and not a
valley i rest in trying to
figure out how to
let someone else
in