small town hometown

my hometown is nothing but a
small town filled with strangers, all
greeting me by first name

i am plagued by
i feel
out of place

this place is a world of things
i have worked to grow beyond
laughter echoing, result of
the same wisecracks of my childhood

i am sorry i am so different from you
such a disappointment to you

so unimpressed by you

pardon me if i will not jump through hoops
to laugh at all the comebacks
you still remember from kindergarten

oh, what a fine memory you possess
i am not amused

i am not home
i am not you