3.29.2004

Dear Innocence

The more I search for you

The further away I realize I've become

I can't help but wonder

If you could pay me a visit sometime

When I'm around you, I feel restored

I don't remember how I lost you

How could this have happened?

All that's in me longs for your return

Awaits it

But I can't help but wonder

If my heart's too black for you to recognize

Will you turn and run?

Everything in me longs to see you again

To feel you again

Shower Me With False Innocence

Whisper the lies

That bring a smile to my face

And tears to my eyes

Seduce me with your cynicism

Deceive me with your lust

Make me feel comfortable

So that I don't have to be accountable

Bury me with your injustice

So that I can blame you

When judgment comes


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Weeee, I wrote again. Yay!

3.22.2004

Eric, You Are

If I were an idolater
You would be my object of praise

If I were a painter
You would be the most beautiful strokes a canvas ever saw

If I were a songwriter
You would be a melody hummed in envy, in desire

But I am just a girl
You are just my soulmate


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This really sucks. I don't even know why I posted it. Rawr.

3.07.2004

Glimmer of Hope

Why does the moon bother trying to light the dark sky

Does it possess a glimmer of hope to save the pale, dreary souls

Who deny everything but their own suffering

Why does a candle stay light in a room with the blinds pulled

Does it possess a glimmer of hope the breeze won't extinguish it

As it wisps its way toward the dwindling flame

3.04.2004

i will meet you there

close your eyes

as the song from my lips

calms you to sleep

and i'll meet you there

where we break out of the cage

we escape the bars, escape reality

and i can reach out and your hand will meet mine

our fingers bend along each other's

and you pull me close

and kiss me so softly

and i dont have to know that its not real

i dont want to know its not real

i could stay here forever

if i didnt know there was something better

if i didnt know how much better it will be

when i really can reach out and your hand will meet mine

our fingers bending along each other's

and you pull me close

and kiss me so softly

and i can feel your breath as you whisper

i love you

then i'll never want to let you go

i dont ever want to let you go

but until i can tell you face to face

until i can say i love you with the depths

my eyes portray

until i can feel your breath as you whisper

ill sing the words

that calm you to sleep

and ill meet you there

in an alternate reality

a glimpse of the perfection that is to come

i love you

3.03.2004

sanctification

rid me of justification

i want complete annihilation

of complication

aggravation

lead me into glorification

for the modification

of this place so God-forsaken

i give full concentration

with anticipation

of manifestations

of your sanctification


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wow. umm. i guess my vocab needed excercising :P