8.29.2003

Deeper

You've brought me to a new plane of exploration of discovery and thought and deeper love. All these obstacles only lead me to the conclusion that I'm headed towards You.

"Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am whole again"

Drained to my toes, empty and breathless I came to you, and now I'm overflowing. In my brokenness complete. I know always more than ever that I need You.

"Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am free again.... clean again"

Ties I had created are cut, I can reach for You with all of me now. All the dirtiness that became me is cleansed. I'm Yours and free. Now that it's broken, I feel You again. Now that it's broken, I feel free again, clean again.

Foolishness has escaped me and knowledge has consumed me, and for that I rejoice. I held so long to the fall of myself, thinking that it was what I wanted. Now that it's broken, I can grow again. Now that I'm here, I can find You again.

Alone and calloused, I forgot what I once held so dear. Now that I know what I'm missing, I can't leave You again.

8.26.2003

Heavy Laden

I whisper in the wind knowing my voice will carry to You.

I wait for Your answer, speak to me.

Elimination of those things surrounding moreso envelopes me in Your presence.

Serenity, peace, contentment, consumption.

8.18.2003

Goodbye, My Love

"It's been a long time... since I've felt the rain upon my head"

It's been a long time since the path ahead of me was fogged over and in question. Since I trodded through puddles to get to you. Since I was wet and cold, but persevering towards you.

Where you would bring me warmth.

"Were my arms too short to ransom you?"

Five hundred miles too far to stretch?

I feel like my arms are ten thousand times longer from reaching for you. Wasn't it enough? Were you so far out of reach? My love?

"Stitch your eyes so you could read this forever"

Read this forever. Forever. I've lost you forever. No... I have to forget...