7.03.2000

life.

life is a challenge. what comes out of it all depends on what we put into it, put our trust in, and how we take things. it depends on whether our motives are pure, and our hearts compassionate. if we focus so long on the things torn out of our grasp, we never see the things coming down the road of hope, if we spend so much time on our appearance, we never notice our potential and true beauty. if we spend all our time adjusting, we will never fit in. if we spend every second wondering what feels right, we will never accomplish what is right. if we spend all of our time thinking, we will never find the answer. if we spend so much time asking, we will never have the time to receive. sometimes we just need to take things as they come at us, and lay them down in the hands of our lord, and let him take care of us. after all, life is a challenge, but the challenge isn't whether or not we can handle it, but if we can handle trusting the lord to do the best for us. he is the master, our father, our entire universe. the challenge is knowing we are not apt to handle all things, and to use prayer as a necessary tool to contemplate the issues of life, and do what the lord has ordered.

4.23.2000

Free Forever

The Lord is calling me.
I can hear His voice,
Faint as a whisper.
Change is a virtue within my grasp,
Yet I run to the one
Who delights in my misery.

I put my life in the hands
Of him who is out to defeat me
And wonder why I fall.

Until I lose all strength,
And finally I trust in what I know is true.
My eyes are opened,
And I realize what I've done.
I turn my heartand walk
Towards the goals of the Most High.

I strive, and reach,
Towards the truth that stands forever.
I see my answer,
Jesus is before me with hand outstretched,
And I know I am free,
Free forever.

4.20.2000

my god.

when i feel like nothing,
you let me know i'm everything to you.
when i feel like i'm drowning in a world of hate,
you lift me up to walk on the lake of faith.

when i feel lost,
you give me direction.
you are my counselor, my father, my friend.

when i feel like quiting,
you give me the strength to endure,
and persevere,
to press on,
only by your power.

you are my night and day,
my every second,
my every move,
my every heartbeat.
you are all that i am.

you gave a love to the world,
the ultimate sacrifice,
only to have this world deny your existence,
your right to be,
but you are.
you are everything,
my everything.

1.23.2000

As the Clouds

As I stare at the clouds,
I see how freely they float.
They so not suffer.
They cry away all their wrongs
And soar, with beauty,
Untouched.

How I wish that I
Were as the clouds,
Flying high
Wherever I wish to go.

How I long to feel
As the clouds must feel,
Nothing there
To weigh me down.

How I would fly,
High into the sky
Into your loving arms,
Where you would comfort me,
And hold me in your hands
For eternity.

1.19.2000

he.

he came to this earth with a secret ambition: to die for us.
he was made to wear a crown of thorns upon his head.
he was tortured but for a few hours, but so brutally
he was unrecognizable.
he went through an extremely agonizing death.
he died so we could have eternal life.
he died to save us from eternal damnation.
he died for us and he loves us somuch.
he went through all that pain for OUR sins.
he will forgive our wrongs the second we ask. and while
he hung on that cross,
he was thinking of us. our faces were lingering in
his mind, and all
he can do...
is love us.